More Machine Than Man

darthvaderdeadThis past week, when I mentioned to one of my friends that I was going in for yet another joint replacement, he reminded me of this most appropriate of movie quotes. At first I laughed, but when I really considered what the quote said, I suddenly realized that it was strikingly appropriate. Both literally and figuratively, my body and mind are changing, becoming something different than I ever expected them to be. Just like the character to which the quote refers, I am on my own journey of self-discovery and I must suffer the tests put before me. I have ended up becoming something I never thought I’d become – and it happened so surreptitiously that I didn’t notice until it was too late.

About a year and a half ago, I began to see that my right ankle was accumulating bone at an alarming rate. This bone growth was causing my right foot to supinate so badly that I was literally walking on the edge of my heel and pinky toe, and in response, my body was protecting the soft skin underneath by forming a hardened barrier made of skin. Of course, I immediately realized the danger inherent in ignoring such a problem, and began to work on the right ankle with my physical therapist.

Read more..