Sometimes you can surprise yourself. Throughout the years, I have been excluded from many activities due to my ongoing illness. Because I so often was unable to participate I became jaded, and after a long while I simply opted out without consideration. Recently, though, I fought the urge to be a curmudgeon, and I actually did something I never thought possible.
When I was young, I frequently played basketball, joined in games of manhunt, and swam in the ocean. When I reached the age of eighteen or so, I suddenly stopped participating in any activity at all, athletic or otherwise. The precise reason I stopped participating has become clouded over time, but I know it had to do with the fact that my pain level after vigorous activity was increased. I decided I had to save my energy for the tasks had to be accomplish, and I couldn’t spare the energy or pain for things that were not imperative. Eventually, I fell into the routine of avoiding activity without thought.